Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year

Christmas was so happy and happening. So kecoh and havoc....enjoy alot. But no matter what, there is someone that is missing on that day.

New year is coming and once again Mr.Big is leaving me, but this time is on work purpose. Well, i am trying my best to be an understanding partner. Afterall, i don't really feel that bad too. This is the first time i trusted someone so much. Knowing me.....its hard for me to trust someone so easily. But still....there is 80% of untrust level in me...i only trust him 20%...hehehehehehe......syhhhh....don't tell him!

So whatz my new resolution for this coming new year?? I am so mess up in my head.That is so many things that really need to be done. Can't able to state it here...sensitive issues. About Mr. Big and me, well, i'll just leave it to God. If he is mine, he will be mine. Malas and tired to think about it. Each time thinking about it realy make me worry and heartsick. I don't really care much about anything now days. Easy come and easy go. I will want to be working in a new enviroment, new life, everything new. I wanna save lotza money. I am going to continue to prove to everyone that i can make it! Its not really easy but if come to think about it...its not really that hard too. Afterall, i am happy that i have Mr. Big with me. Its not about the money but its about the emotional support.

So, lets all pray hard that this coming new year will brings us all to the best. No regrets....for 2004. Its just a learning process that every human has to go thru. No pain no gain.There is also sweet memories in 2004 that i will never forget. Adios amigo!!