A new start

So its a new start for me now...as i have to be on my own. I never had been on my own b4. Well....juz have to do it! I got my own place to stay..all thou its abit boring..but still..better than nothing. For the first time in my life...i have no attached bf. I wanna wait for someone...but i dunno until when? As time past by...feelings grow...and i think...i am the only 1 having feelings for that person. I do not know...i just hope that i will take my heart out of that person....maybe i can start thinking negative things about that person. Like..he is rude to me at times...never seems to bother much abt me...and get irritated when it comes to me....and bla..bla..bla..
Afterall..i am not that irritating....at least..i care....and i know how to miss someone...better than a person who dun gives a damn to care. If you dun miss that person..means you dun love that person. You also dun care much bout that person. So naive!!!

Anyway....Miah ask for a proposal. Huh....funny...but i just say NO! Who cares if you're a millionair or whatsoever....i dun love you. He called me all the way from UK just to ask me this. Well...he called me again..but..i just rejected his proposal as i can't do it! I left my heart with someone who dun care and that someone left his heart with another person.